Chisme

Sooooooo, hi!

It’s been a while since I last posted… I’ll just make a quick comment, and then I’ll go on with the purpose of my post.

I’ve noticed that the only time I ever post, is when I’m having relationship trouble. Of any sort. That said, here’s a new post \ o/

#1!! Oh yeah, on FIAR!

Last week, I found out, much to my dismay, that my “high school sweetheart” got married. I did quite a stupid thing, really… A “friend” elbowed me into joining Facebook and MySpace, and try and get a hold of people I knew from high school. That in itself, I felt, was a bad idea. I have a hard enough time keeping track of a blog, how am I supposed to maintaining a “social networking” account?

Well, after getting in touch with this guy (who I was told about 3 years ago had died while serving in the army, long story), and after being in a lot of terrible teenagy angst about it all Thursday, I find out, Friday morning, that he’s getting married… that same day!!

I’m not sure what I expected. Maybe for us to start dating again? I think maybe I was hoping, beyond hope, that he was single. But, ah well, whatever. I should know better than to expect that sort of luck.

So, I’m taking things one step further, and just giving up on relationships altogether \o/

I know I’ve said this before (I think), but I think I’ve finally figured out how to *seriously* not worry about having a romantic relationship with anyone. I’ve gotten offers from people, to date, and whatnot…. Like, I’m not at a complete standstill with relationships. I do have some options, but how to say this delicately… I just don’t think it’d work out with those particular people. I just don’t feel the *spark*, cliche, I know, that makes me want to date those people.

Maybe I’m just a hopeless romantic. I suppose that must be it. But this is another thing in my life I give up on.

#2!! WoooOoOOooOoo here we gooo!

Having been somewhat depressed and gloomy and cranky all weekend, I get to work praying, as it were, for an event-less day to help me keep the “get over it” mentality going.

So.. My coworker walks into the office and is obviously grouchy. She settles down, and I figure I should avoid her to prevent any “events”.

After some time, I find myself reloading all the machines in the office with their appropriate printing paper, and she comes up to me asking if she can talk to me. I just sigh, and think “There goes my event-less morning…”, and say “Sure, what’s up.”

She starts telling me about how, when picking her son up from his dad’s home, his dad (who is also a coworker, let’s call him W, and call her R), said I was talking “shit” about her behind her back. According to him, while R was out of the office one day, another coworker was looking for a document off of her desk, and I started speaking badly of her organizational skills, calling her and her habits “a pig” and “piggish”.

First of all, that’s not true at all, which is what I told her. Noticing I’m getting *quite* pissed off about it, she starts trying to explain that her intention isn’t to piss me off. That she knows I wouldn’t say things like that behind her back. That we’ve always been honest with each other in our opinions and that we’re good friends.

Now, I can’t help but say, quite angrily, “Why are we having this conversation then? If you’re so confident that I wouldn’t say anything like that, why the hell would you even bring it up?” Then I go on a huge long rant about how fed up I am with their problems, and that if W. keeps trying to sling mud in my direction, I’ll have our boss decide between me and him.

Then I go over to my dad (who is also W.’s supervisor), and have him know that this guy is slinging mud at my name again, and that I won’t do anything for now, but that if he keeps it up I’ll do anything I can to get him fired.

Then I get chastised ;_;

My dad explains that R is probably too much of a coward to work out her personal problems with W. (and they’ve been having a LOT of problems, mostly because R. is dating again and W. is a territorial bastard) and that she’s most likely trying to influence me into doing exactly what I’m threatening to do.

So I go back to R. and I let her know that if she’s trying to manipulate me into taking action, she had better say goodbye to our friendship.

And then she starts crying ;_;

Sheesh… I really made a mess of things at this point.

So she explains that the only reason she commented all that to me was because she talks to me about her problems, and her feelings quite often, and she wanted me to know that she didn’t believe him, but she also wanted to talk about how that made her feel.

And I go *facepalm*.

I tell her I need to cool down, and stop talking so I can think things through. She goes away for a bit, and then I get an email from her apologizing for having angered me, saying that she didn’t explain things the way she should have, and that the way she approached me about it was wrong and she understood why I thought it felt like a confrontation, and that she was very very sorry and wouldn’t talk to me about W. again.

So I send her an email back letting her know I was sorry too, for my reaction. That I was having a bad month and that I didn’t mean to take my anger out on her. That she can feel free to talk to me about her problems, or to not talk to me about her problems, that it was her decision either way. More or less saying, it doesn’t affect me one way or another, so she doesn’t have to feel bad about it.

*sighs*

It’s been another one of those months. Really.

Good news is, I’ve lost almost 40 lbs… Haha

This weekend I spent playing mostly Halo 1 (PC). I really had *no* idea how much fun it was, nor what a good method of stress relief it is. Halo, coupled with running, and a couple courses I’m taking from the local college should help me keep my stress levels down, and should help me keep busy.

If it’s really gotten to the point where I’m taking my frustration out on others, I need to get my act together more than I thought.

But… for some reason… I’m in a better mood

Purrhapsh tonight I’ll blawg an update as to what I’ve been up to since last time I got serious about blogging.

Maybe… or maybe not… I dunno :3